36 weeks...

I wish time would fly a little bit faster. not too much faster I still have so much to do but want to meet this little guy.

Last month we took him to California to see the family before he "arrives".

It was a fabulous get away and we were so spoiled.

We have been in a mad dash since we got home to get everything ready.

Here is to hoping we can get it all done!

08.08.10

or sooner!

putting it in his words...

i did not grow up with guns, the only purpose of a gun was to kill someone breaking in to your house.

my dad never killed a deer to feed his family, my mom would just stop by the grocery store to pick up anything we needed.

a truck was only required to take furniture to the d.i.

a rodeo was just some place to go after a parade.

my family didn't wear wranglers, cowboy hats, or boots.

boy have things changed.

Our houses are protected by the good Lord and a gun
And you might meet 'em both if you show up here not welcome son
Our necks are burnt, our roads are dirt and our trucks ain't clean
The dogs run lose, we smoke, we chew and fry everything
Out here, way out here


We won't take a dime if we ain't earned it
When it comes to weight brother we pull our own
If it's our backwoods way of livin' you're concerned with
You can leave us alone
We're about John Wayne, Johnny Cash and John Deere
Way out here

We got a fightin' side a mile wide but we pray for peace
'Cause it's mostly us that end up servin' overseas
If it was up to me I'd love to see this country run
Like it used to be, oughta be, just like it's done
Out here, way out here

I heard this song and it seriously teared me up. it is like they know ryan. it is like they know what matters to us. and maybe HOOPER ain't 'way out here' we sometimes live like it is! i think today it all just clicked, we are the way we are and it is good to be this way. we love our faith, family, friends and country and i think thats all that really counts!

disclaimer: we do not smoke or chew. promise.

happy birthday

this is a little late. but better late than never right?

on april 28th ryan turned 27. doesn't that sound old? 26 didn't sound old but 27...i am so excited for next year, his golden birthday, i think that deserves an exotic trip right? how does hawaii with my parents sound, ry?! (jk...kinda. we are really going, but that is a story for another post!)

so in honor of the old man

27 reasons i love you (ryan allen jensen)

1. you are the best husband. you love spending time with me even if it is doing nothing! (which you hate, but i abosultely love )

2. how sweet you are to our baby boy. and that you always talk to him. and say "that's my boy!" (even if it is after he kicks me so hard it hurts)

3. when i want to review the questions at the end of all of our baby books chapters and instead of telling me i am a loser, you do them with me, even if you mock them, you still answer them!

4. you work so hard. you work hard at your job, at all you pre-masters classes, at making our house beautiful...

5. you take care of your family so good! me & baby jensen never want for anything, we are probably the two most spoiled people in the world! expensive cribs, pizza in north ogden, a new (safe) car, a vacation, a mac (haha) you never tell me (us) no. (you probably should sometimes...)

6. your passion. (s) you don't love anything half-heartedly...me, fishing, hunting, guns, glenn beck...

7. you don't do anything half heartedly. if you are going to do it, it is going to be perfect. aka: painting our house, tiling, our yard, your wife (just kidding!)

8. you can laugh at yourself. you don't take anything too serious and you don't let anything or anyone get to you.

9. you hate tv. which normally would not be a positive but it makes me so much less lazy! i love your 7 off i am so much more productive. but you will still watch modern family with me. (on the internet with no commercials)

10. your love of old country music. i love dan seals because you love dan seals.

11. you splurge on fun things: dinner, concerts, hotels, vacations. and you never make me feel guilty when we do!

12. you are balding. which means you are 29% less likely to get prostate cancer, taking care of yourself for our family.

13. you love my new recipes "you'll try anything once"

14. the way you take care of sadie. if that is a precursor to how you will care for our children, they are going to be in great hands! except you let her be mean to me. not cool.

15. dating you. i love going out, the way you make everything special, thoughtful and sweet.

16. you put up with my c.r.a.z.y. family

17. how proud you get when i "spot" something while we drive like that beaver, oh my goodness so exciting!

18. your talents. really how many guys can paint, play the piano, tie their own flies, shoot with the accuracy of a sniper, play basketball like a champ...need i go on?

19. the way kids just love you. follow you around. copy everything you do. it is so cute and sweet.

20. every "old" memory i have of us! our first date, the first time we kissed (which was moments into our first date lol) the first time we said i love you, when we got engaged, marrying you, our first HOUSE!, finding out we are having a baby! finding out our baby is a boy!

21. you try so hard to get me to eat 90 grams of protein. really really hard. and are not impressed by my 75!

22. if you could do anything professionally you would own a landscaping business. you go to college for 7 years...and really all you want to do is mow lawns...

23. we think the same exact things all the time. creepy, a little, but mostly so cute. about people, things, anything

24. "what it is?" "take luck" "i'll....you in about a minute"

25. how quirky you are. like when you made a pact with YOURSELF that you always have to own a truck, who does that?! that you only sleep in particular clothes, there are so many more but i am too tired to remember, i'll come back and edit this!

26. how you pretend like everything that ever happened before me never mattered, you don't care about high school or old family vacations, if i wasn't a part of it, it really isn't that important

27. honestly, i love the way you love me.

i am the luckiest girl. to have a husband who is so good, honest and hardworking but also loving, fun and crazy! you are my perfect match. i love every memory we make. i couldn't picture someone more wonderful for my eternity. i love you ryan.

happy birthday!

Perspective

i don't know if it is because i am pregnant.

or because i am nuts.

but i have been an emotional wreck lately

-the right song on the radio.

-a sweet commercial on tv.

-when i miss ryan.

-when i miss my family.

-when i think about our baby.

-if i read a good blog.

-when i price diapers...seriously it happened once.

-during general conference i think i cried 100 times.

and today...i can't stop crying.

i am so blessed.

i have the best father in the whole world. he is the most selfless man. ever. sometimes too selfless. but he literally would give anything to his children. and he has given everything. he works hard to help all of us. i can't wait til he has the chance to just play golf and visit all the baseball parks (and temples) in the united states and doesn't have to worry about his children's tuition, debt and can just enjoy his free time with his beautiful wife (had to give her a plug in this man post!) my dad may also be the smartest man in the world. he has read the encyclopedia and the dictionary for fun! i don't form a single opinion without consulting with my dad. even who to cheer for in the NCAA championship men's basketball game. my dad knows every trivial fact about anything you could ever need to know (except celebrities..that is how the women stand a chance and trivial pursuit) my dad has a testimony. he is a servant

of the lord. but our family never came second. we know my dad's priorities and always have. any given day of the year my dad can tell you how many hours til his summer vacation. my dad loves his family. he loves hot weather. he loves my mom's family. and a good game of boggle. he is a great grandpa. he spoils his little ones pretty good. heck he spoils his kids pretty good. some of my favorite dad-isms:

"money is a tool. it is meant to be used." -i think i might take that one to heart to much...some is meant to be saved :)

my dad has a disorder we refer to as "hansen humor" it is full of puns. corny jokes. bad dancing "i got the beat...i got the beat". but we love him for it. my dad says i love you everytime we talk on the phone. even if half the time we talked he was playing a card game on the computer and didn't hear a thing i said. (silly non multi tasking dad!)...my parents

definitely weren't perfect, but they weren't given perfect children to work with! they loved us unconditionally. they still do. and i am proud to be his daughter. i love my dad.

luckily. ryan also has the best dad in the world. i am so grateful to marry in to a family so close to being translated. good thing with me around they will stick around for awhile :) my father in law is the most hard working man i have ever met. ever. he is at work from sun up to sun down and then off too meetings until 10 pm. he is the most righteous man i have ever met. people say they are in awe when they meet apostles, i live in a constant state of awe with my father in law. he doesn't talk bad about anyone. he knows every aspect of the gospel. we have run into him at the temple on more than one occasion, and it is not cause WE are there that much! my father in law knows how to have fun. he taught his boys to hunt and fish and camp. i really do love jensen style camping. even if it is the EXACT opposite of hansen style! some how he raised sons that get it. good boys that do good, work hard, are honest and fun. i give him so much credit for that! being his favorite is my #1 goal and i think i am doing pretty good. :) he tags along on all my free adventures and i love him for that: crummy BYU tickets, rodeos..you name it he is in! he doesn't just offer it but i love his advice he is practical. he is an engineer if you know what i mean! i am so glad that even though my dad is so far away, i still feel like i am cared for and loved like a daughter. one time he threw a rock into my elbow, like he was pitching it, it was the most pain i have ever felt...maybe he is just making up for that :)

and this all comes down to my perspective. i am so grateful for the men in my life. for the priesthood they hold to bless our family. i am so thankful for their example. i am so grateful for my husband who works hard to take care of his family. who sacrifices to give me not just my needs but every want and wish i have. i was my dad's princess growing up and now i am a queen. i have been so blessed. i am so excited to have a little boy. to teach him to laugh like his grandpa hansen and work like his grandpa jensen and love like his dad. i don't think any of these men read my blog, but i just wanted to write down how i feel today. so blessed. so loved. and i hope i live to make each of them proud. because i am proud to be a part of all of them. and most importantly i am thankful to a father in heaven who blessed me with them. and now with a boy...it just feels right having a boy :)

p.s. if you are over the age of 50 get a colonoscopy. it is so worth it... in fact get every test you can. and eat right and exercise.

the fears of a redneck wife...

ryan and i are both very non confrontational.

we have never really fought.

ever.

i can't remember the last time he even maybe me mad.

hunting season always makes me sad but i don't count that.

but...

there are some things we just don't discuss because it could make us fight.

i lied it is not somethings...

it is one thing.

ryan wants to move.

not right now.

but he wants his kids to have "what he had and didn't have growing up"

-no backyard neighbors.

-shooting bb guns in the backyard

-learning to fish just a walk away

-no traffic (for those who don't know he grew up like 5 houses away from highway 89..seriously no traffic?!!)

but what it all really comes down to (although he would never admit it...) he wants to be able to hunt. in better places.

better states.

he doesn't want to live in blessed Utah.

and it makes me sick.

he thinks there is too much traffic.

too many people.

but he isn't a farmer. a rancher.

he is a microbiologist.

there isn't a huge demand for them in the sticks of wyoming.

i love weber county.

i love weber school district.

i love being so close to our family.

i want my kids to go to fremont. (or weber...i have sketchy loyalty)

i want to live in plain city

or farr west

or harrisville

or pleasant view.

all fabulous places for a microbiologist to live.

so...

i feel there are all these little battles along the way i must win to win the war.

well ladies, i come to you...

a failure.

i think i lost our first battle.

and the worst part...i don't think i feel nearly as redneck as i should...

so...what do i do? let him win this battle and keep my focus on the war? or take it down with a blow torch?

i sure hope seriouslysoblessed doesn't make fun of me for this post but i am serious!

100%

BOY!

now we just have to wait to meet the little tyke!

we sure love him already though.

new favorites...

i have fallen in love with a few things lately..

lemonade. fresh squeezed.

salsa- like the delicious fresh kind!

fruit-all of it...i wish more was in season!

tv..i have like 36 must see shows! (i wish ryan had a different schedule, i would be MUCH more productive)

sleep. 12 hours everyday. naps.

dan seals. (20 years late..)

but my very new favorite..

.

will make his grand arrival in August!

we are having a BABY!

i love ultrasounds

dr appointments.

reading everything i can get my hands on.

planning, preparing, and all that comes with that!

i don't love...

being sick. a lot.

being tired. always.

getting nothing done. ever.

getting fat. pants not buttoning. shirts a little snug. but so worth it!

we took our test on Dec. 14th. (we were so nervous it would be negative and we would be so sad for christmas) i took three tests just to be sure! we both were so nervous. and excited. we just starred at it for awhile. then went to costco (and purposely did NOT look at diapers so we wouldn't get sad at how expensive this is going to be!)

Jan 7th was our first dr. appt. ryan made me change the appt because he couldn't come to the first one i made and he does not want to miss them! (so sweet)

we didn't get to hear the heartbeat and that was sad. and my first due date was august 14th.

we told our families towards the end of january. we told the jensens in a game of cranium and we sent my parents flowers and a poem. i didn't get to see their reaction but i think they were surprised! and i know the jensens were! but excited! everyone has been so excited!

our second appt was jan 29th we got to hear the heartbeat! AMAZING! and our little bud was just doing gymnastics in there! so sweet. our dr said she thinks it is a boy.

ryan is SO excited. we said we didn't care. but he definitely did care.

we find out for sure on march 2nd for now our due date is 08.08.10

we are so excited. and love this little one already!

i will try to do better at blogging so we can remember all the details.

and maybe even post a picture

this is all we have so far in our nursery. unisex onsies and a stuffed buffalo. we are the best parents