Perspective

i don't know if it is because i am pregnant.

or because i am nuts.

but i have been an emotional wreck lately

-the right song on the radio.

-a sweet commercial on tv.

-when i miss ryan.

-when i miss my family.

-when i think about our baby.

-if i read a good blog.

-when i price diapers...seriously it happened once.

-during general conference i think i cried 100 times.

and today...i can't stop crying.

i am so blessed.

i have the best father in the whole world. he is the most selfless man. ever. sometimes too selfless. but he literally would give anything to his children. and he has given everything. he works hard to help all of us. i can't wait til he has the chance to just play golf and visit all the baseball parks (and temples) in the united states and doesn't have to worry about his children's tuition, debt and can just enjoy his free time with his beautiful wife (had to give her a plug in this man post!) my dad may also be the smartest man in the world. he has read the encyclopedia and the dictionary for fun! i don't form a single opinion without consulting with my dad. even who to cheer for in the NCAA championship men's basketball game. my dad knows every trivial fact about anything you could ever need to know (except celebrities..that is how the women stand a chance and trivial pursuit) my dad has a testimony. he is a servant

of the lord. but our family never came second. we know my dad's priorities and always have. any given day of the year my dad can tell you how many hours til his summer vacation. my dad loves his family. he loves hot weather. he loves my mom's family. and a good game of boggle. he is a great grandpa. he spoils his little ones pretty good. heck he spoils his kids pretty good. some of my favorite dad-isms:

"money is a tool. it is meant to be used." -i think i might take that one to heart to much...some is meant to be saved :)

my dad has a disorder we refer to as "hansen humor" it is full of puns. corny jokes. bad dancing "i got the beat...i got the beat". but we love him for it. my dad says i love you everytime we talk on the phone. even if half the time we talked he was playing a card game on the computer and didn't hear a thing i said. (silly non multi tasking dad!)...my parents

definitely weren't perfect, but they weren't given perfect children to work with! they loved us unconditionally. they still do. and i am proud to be his daughter. i love my dad.

luckily. ryan also has the best dad in the world. i am so grateful to marry in to a family so close to being translated. good thing with me around they will stick around for awhile :) my father in law is the most hard working man i have ever met. ever. he is at work from sun up to sun down and then off too meetings until 10 pm. he is the most righteous man i have ever met. people say they are in awe when they meet apostles, i live in a constant state of awe with my father in law. he doesn't talk bad about anyone. he knows every aspect of the gospel. we have run into him at the temple on more than one occasion, and it is not cause WE are there that much! my father in law knows how to have fun. he taught his boys to hunt and fish and camp. i really do love jensen style camping. even if it is the EXACT opposite of hansen style! some how he raised sons that get it. good boys that do good, work hard, are honest and fun. i give him so much credit for that! being his favorite is my #1 goal and i think i am doing pretty good. :) he tags along on all my free adventures and i love him for that: crummy BYU tickets, rodeos..you name it he is in! he doesn't just offer it but i love his advice he is practical. he is an engineer if you know what i mean! i am so glad that even though my dad is so far away, i still feel like i am cared for and loved like a daughter. one time he threw a rock into my elbow, like he was pitching it, it was the most pain i have ever felt...maybe he is just making up for that :)

and this all comes down to my perspective. i am so grateful for the men in my life. for the priesthood they hold to bless our family. i am so thankful for their example. i am so grateful for my husband who works hard to take care of his family. who sacrifices to give me not just my needs but every want and wish i have. i was my dad's princess growing up and now i am a queen. i have been so blessed. i am so excited to have a little boy. to teach him to laugh like his grandpa hansen and work like his grandpa jensen and love like his dad. i don't think any of these men read my blog, but i just wanted to write down how i feel today. so blessed. so loved. and i hope i live to make each of them proud. because i am proud to be a part of all of them. and most importantly i am thankful to a father in heaven who blessed me with them. and now with a boy...it just feels right having a boy :)

p.s. if you are over the age of 50 get a colonoscopy. it is so worth it... in fact get every test you can. and eat right and exercise.